"I woke up today only to really realize that I can't make anyone want my dream for me. . . even though I may know ppl who can get me a step closer to where I need to be, they really don't have to and I need to learn how to NOT to take it personal. . . What's for ME will BE. . . with or without their help! ;-D"
That was my facebook status this morning.
I really wanted to continue on with it, but there wasn't enough room. (darn those 240 character limits. . .)
But all jokes aside, this is something that i've struggled with. Knowing that I have people in either my close circle, network or past that have the connections/abilities to get me to where I need to be. . . yet they don't. I use to think that because they didn't go out of their way to give me a shoe in, or mention me to the right people, that they didn't support or believe in me, but I know better now. . . that's all in my head and even if its true, it doesn't matter. God is with me, so I don't need them. . . . or do I ?
Sometimes life in NYC gets hard. I am away from many of my friends and family and I constantly questions if the move here was worth it. I know without a doubt that if i remained in Florida, I'd be living out a portion of my dream. I'd be hosting a radio show, doing live remotes, building up my air check and working on my next steps. But, instead, I am working at a 9-5 that I always vowed I'd never do. I am networking in the meantime, but I am at the point where I am like, does it even matter? What's the point of networking/be friending young executives, PR people, artists, videographer/photographers, promoters, djs etc who aren't doing for me? They say its not what you do, but who you know. . . what happens when you know the right people. . . but there is no support?
That's a question that I can continue to ask, but i'll never get the answer that i want . . .
Until then, its just me and my dreams. . .
NYC. . . If i can make it here, I can make it anywhere. . .
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